Book Stores Still Exist
Guys, guess what?! I read a book last week! I’m giving myself a gold star, or maybe laughing at my sad attempt at reading books over the past year. Whatever, irregardless of my book-reading situation this past year (or few) I read a book over vacation and it was exactly what I needed.
I hadn’t read a book in so long that wasn’t a book about nutrition. While I love learning about nutrition so that I can best help clients, friends, family, and myself, sometimes you want to turn your brain off and feed it new information. Before we left on our trip (we call the 14+ hour drive “The Odyssey”) I decided to go to a book store. Honestly, I had no idea that they even still existed, however, it was the day before we were leaving and no time to Amazon Prime anything, so to Barnes & Noble I went.
I had researched books very quickly before going to the store so I wasn’t there for 5 million hours. One book kept popping up called “Girl, Wash Your Face”. The title kept drawing me back to it because, afterall, I’m not really one to wash my face and I wondered what in the world this book would tell me. I grabbed it along with another book (that I didn’t read on vacation), called “The One Thing.” I’m not sure if the book knew I needed it or if I knew I needed the book, either way it was the best purchase I’ve made in a while.
Unplugged & Focused
You may ask why I didn’t just buy a Kindle/e-book version of the book. While, yes I’d prefer not to buy more things I don’t need and waste precious paper. However, I wanted to be able to hold a book in my hand while not being connected to any device whatsoever. It was pure joy getting to hold a book in my hands, listen to the ocean roar, and unplug from my 100% plugged in life.
You don’t realize how on edge the plugged in world makes you until you escape it for a minute. This book allowed me to escape the social media comparison trap but at the same time was an amazing way to reflect on my life. Yes, reflect on my life. I rarely take time for myself and rarely reflect on how I’m doing/feeling/thinking etc. The book helped me realize I have been holding myself back, not trusting the process, and worrying far too much about the wrong things.
The Book That Gave Me More Confidence
This book immediately helped my confidence. That is something I have struggled with my whole life, but, honestly, who hasn’t struggled with that?! I feel as though that might come as a shock to some people, but honestly I worry all the time that I’m not good enough at everything I do.
The book goes through all these lies that we tell ourselves by applying them to the author’s real life experiences. Honestly, Rachel Hollis, you are a legend with all that you’ve overcome. If you don’t already follow her, go check her out on her Instagram at @msrachelhollis she’s an inspiration and just as real as they get.
Even JJ pointed out that I seemed to hold my head a bit higher and seem more confident in my ways after reading this book. Isn’t it amazing what a few words typed out on a few pages can do?! It made me realize that I internalize a lot of what goes on in my life and career. I want so badly to be accepted, loved, and cared for. While I am sassy, fun-loving, sarcastic, and witty, I am also very vulnerable especially when it comes to my career as The Sassy Dietitian.
The book made me realize I was holding back in all that I’ve been doing for fear that I would offend someone somewhere. Here’s the thing, if we aren’t true to ourselves, and keep holding back, all we really do is offend our own self-beliefs and hold ourselves back from what we could be.
I’m over that.
I want to show you more of who Sassy is, why she does what she does, and all the struggles I have along the way. Will this offend people sometimes? Maybe. But as Rachel Hollis says so eloquently in her book:
“Someone else’s opinion of you is none of your business.”
The Lie: I Need To Make Myself Smaller
While there are 20 lies in the book, one stood out to me the most. (Grab your own copy to read the other 19!) The Lie: I Need To Make Myself Smaller.
Holy crap, that lie resonates with me so much it scares me. Why? Because I try so much to put others first and try to drown out my wants, needs, and desires. I try to make myself as small as possible so that others can shine. I hate the spotlight and I never EVER want to look like what I’m doing is bragging or showing off.
So much so that I’ve held myself back for years.
Enough is enough. This lie was the most eye opening for me and honestly almost brought me to tears. I know that I am capable of leading and being at the forefront of health, nutrition, and fitness, but I hold myself back to allow others to pass. So as Rachel said, here goes my life:
“I cannot continue to live as half of myself simply because it’s hard for others to handle all of me.”
I would never in a million years post a picture like the one above. Why? For fear that I’ll be judged. And yes, judged either positively or negatively. I worry that by putting a picture or video of myself you might think I’m self-centered. But then I realized, that’s not it at all, I’m hiding myself from you because I’m worried you won’t like me.
If you didn’t like me, you wouldn’t be here. So I challenge you all to stop being so small, and start living as big as you are and shout from the rooftops to let everyone hear your true self. After all, that sounds way more fun than all of us being the same cookie cutter perfect humans, am I right?! So here’s my promise to myself, I WILL stop being small, and start being me, all of me, the me that some may not like, some may love, and others will be overwhelmed by. It me.
Girl, Wash Your Face
So if you can’t tell I loved the book. The part about washing your face is more about (at least in my mind) washing off all the lies we tell ourselves and seeing (and acting) clearly for the first time. So, while I may not be habitually washing my face (do you really need to if you never wear make up?!) I will be reflecting more on the lies I tell myself and breaking through with the real me.
I’m going to add more reading into my life. I almost just typed “I’m going to try to…” and that is exactly one of the things Rachel Hollis talks about NOT doing. Why?! Because we are incredibly fast at breaking promises to ourselves. That was probably the most eye opening thought in the book for me. I’m not one to let down friends, family, or clients but I am the first to let myself down. Enough of this “I might” “I’ll try” and more of the “I will”.
ps. thoughts on a Sassy Monthly Book Club?!